Day 10 says to talk about a thing that you are afraid of...The #1 thing that I'm afraid of is divorce. I think that one of the reasons that I feel so unready for marriage is that I'm so afraid of getting a divorce and even though my parents are remarried and in loving relationships I still remember how hard their divorce was. I remember how torn I felt and how it sort of felt like my world was falling apart. I was young and had the opprotunity to grow up without parents that fought all the time and for that I'm thankful but getting a divorce is still the #1 thing that scares me. As a result I find that I'm afraid to open myself up to people for a long time because the thought of rejection, which is I think the root of what I'm scared of, really throws me for a loop. At my core I'm a people pleaser and it would be really hard for me to be unable to please a spouse enough to warrant a divorce.
Now thankfully tomorrows post will be a lot less heavy!
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