It's been a while

I sort of gave up on this blog after my photos were all deleted. During this time off I also slipped into a depression that I'm still working on pulling myself out of, I learned that I need meds and so I'm on a journey of finding the right combination and medication to help. I thought I would be scared or embarrased to say that I needed help, but in the end I decided that crying all day, every day and not wanting to ever leave my room or bed (more than just wanting to stay cozy) was not good and that I didn't want my life to keep passing by with me not participating. I'm starting to feel a little better but I think we are still a couple of med/combination changes away from being just right.
I have been baking again recently and have been writing my own recipes that seem to just keep getting better and better...which is so exciting! I haven't been taking any pictures though, maybe that is a part of the depression, not wanting to really document anything.
I have also started on weight watchers again. I started in January and I'm down 22 punds so far. We are going on a cruise to the Bahamas next January and I guess that was the kick in the pants that I needed. I have been jogging/walking/lifting weights almost every night. I have taken a few off but I'm exercising more that I'm not exercising! I don't think I have ever been this dedicated to getting healthy but I don't want to fail this time! I'm throwing out clothes as they get to big so that I don't have the option of gaining the weight back and still having clothes. I'm going off sweets and all soda (diet and regular) for the next month to see if I can do it...I like to have new little challenges, it is keeping the journey a little more exciting :)
Ok...that is it for now. I'm heading to Vegas and Pendleton in May so I will have something to blog about in May. But I'm going to try to blog at least once a month. I need to be keeping some sort of journal and since I'm not writting in one this will have to work for now :)